There is no place like home for the Hellidays!!!!

I know this time of year is rough for a lot of my fellow CSMs. Honestly, it's even hard for nuclear family women as well. Relatives that gets on your nerves, the pressures of gift shopping, the arrangements, food preparations...I could go on and on. It takes the fun out of the season sometimes.

Add steplife in and it's just a cauldron of crap soup.

Have some cocktails and hang in there my sisters.

I leave you with a great and FUNNY Step article. Some good and honest advice here.

Have a great Holiday and remember, you can always bitch here!

A very good Step Mother article

Mostly for people who are going to have bio kids but still, it outlines what we feel is normal.

http://jilldeibel.hubpages.com/hub/Why-Nice-Women-Dont-Like-Step-Kids

"Act like the cool Aunt"

OMG if I read this in one more time in a Step Mom article, I am going to scream. "Don't pretend to be the Mom; more like a cool Aunt". Well guess what? An Aunt is RELATED. There are NO loyalty binds. If you do not have a good and/or strained relationship with the BM and be the "cool Aunt" exposing the child to something different you are met with either two setbacks. One is resentment for not being the first to do that cool thing with their child, or anger for doing something they did not approve of.

My God, can't we just be a Step Mom that provides love and shelter, etc? Why does it have to be so defined by a role that is CLEARLY not the same!

So while reading one article...

I found some of the comments interesting in this online piece. The article is about how you may not be ready to own a dog. A couple of the replies about how people should make sure they are prepared for children as well made me chuckle.

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Probably the best childless article ever!

This article is not only for the CBCers, but for the ones who can't have children. The ones that are childless by circumstance or because they made right choices. It gives a positive nod to step parents and aunts/uncles. It's basically saying what is very true. Being a Mother does not make you maternal. LOVE is all you need.

I want to hug this woman.


Finally!

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12 things a Stepmother should never read

Oh, Oprah.

As a childless woman, you should really approve more of the articles that get published in your magazine.

This article is how evil Stepmothers are created!

12 things a Stepmother Should Never Say

I am back from teenage hell

Well...that is not 100% of the reason why I was gone for a while, yet, there are so many reasons why I am back.

I wanted to shake off this feeling only a CSM can understand. I started to pursue goals and dreams only the childless woman can achieve. Let's face it, having kids changes your life and amount of free time. It's changed mine and I am only EOW.

I have achieved a lot of positive things. I have done stuff for ego/monetary gain and some of compassion because you know us CSMs, we have TONS of compassion.

Yet I still can't shake off this feeling. It compounds more and more in my head and heart. It is definitely better than it was 5 years ago, but it rears it's ugly head whenever my MIL smiles at a baby, my DH cries at something his daughters does, or the one that cuts the most; someone gets pregnant.

I don't want to give away too much but someone in my friends circle is pregnant. She has no business having another child. She gets many, I get 0. The injustice is painful and makes it hard to get up sometimes. It would be a heck of a lot easier if I wasn't a SM.

I try to focus on the positive, but I am not an Aunt or something like that.  I have no blood connection to a child. I don't know that "feeling" every woman talks about. What I do know is I have no one to blame but myself which makes it harder. I didn't want kids in my 30's and met my husband later in life.Not too late, at the cusp of too late and it was either leave him or try to get pregnant on my own and that would be stupid for so many reasons. Plus,, he is undoubtedly, the love of my life.

I am back to posting and trying to be positive through the pain. I would love it if people commented more. I see the search words through my tracker. I see women from all over the world and probably all walks of life.We are here. Just silent in our agony.

My positive of the day and what I will leave you with is my Step Daughter told me yesterday:

"You are not just a 'Step Mother' and I love you".

If only the adults in our camp thought the same.